Lesson learnt.

The next time when I start earning money, save as much as I can. 

Life is too short to feel sad, so SMILE! :)

1st day potty training with L.A

Today, we started training potty. Today is the first day. After her afternoon nap ended up approximately at 4pm, I told L.A that we are taking off the diaper, and introduced her to the potty. I told her to let me know if she wants to pee or poop.

In the beginning, she was very excited and was  playing with the potty. She thought it was another new toy. I let her sat at the potty for a few times; just to be sure she is comfortable sitting in it.

Every half an hour, I will take out the pant, and explain to her on why I was doing it. I placed her in the potty. After trying out for few times, I realized that she is not comfortable with the potty. She preferred to release the pee and poop in the toilet instead.

So, with that understanding in mind, I brought her to the toilet every half an hour. To my amazement, each time when we visited the toilet, she actually peed. To encourage her achievement, I clapped, praised and celebrate her successes with positive words of reinforcement, and tons of hugs and kisses.

She had mini accidents though. I called it mini accidents because the quantity of the pee was so little that I don't need to clean up the floor. I just replaced her pant with a new one.

When hubby returned home, I told him everything. From the look of his face, I knew he is so proud of you, L.A.

Dee, mummy and daddy is so proud of you, tonight.

 

 

 

Sigh, what can I say for today, I had a bad day. I tried to be as positive as I can until I see L.A slept. 

Today, one of my dogs did not listen to my instruction, he barked many times although I said no. I was left frustrated. I did punished him, but that left me feeling guilty.

So, this is not a win win situation. It is the other way around.

In the past, I have learnt how to get things done in a smart way, not in the hard way.

"Work smart, not work hard"

Till now, I am still thinking about ways on how to put it into practice when it comes to handling daily challenges.

Though my Thursday is not as fun as other days, I wish you had a good one. 

Good night, people. 

(posting from my email)

Which path?

Am I in dilemma? I am weighing the pros and cons, once again.
There is a part of me that wants to do this but I have a lot of concerns.
Another part of me thinks I should be doing the other thing.
Hmmmm.

xoxo,
24yomummy

Confirmed the registration for KAAK course.

A while ago, I just confirmed my registration for KAAK course in SEGI college. The course is expected to start on Nov 2011 and ends in March 2012. As I will be taking care of L.A on full-time basis, I have decided to attend the course on part-time basis; that will be on every Saturday, plus Wed/Fri of that particular week.

If you ask me, what is my feeling about my enrollment? Well, mummy is excited, L.A :)

This will be the first step for me to be educated in the area of childcare. 

My source of motivation comes from the dream that I have > to start a happy home for children that provides quality childcare, and because quality comes with a higher price (these days), I am determined to challenge myself to do what I can on the charging fees without compromise the service quality.

This is my dream.

***

4th October 2011: 

I had a wonderful time with L.A at home. I am grateful because we have First Year Child Booster, I managed to kept L.A busy with meal, and blocks while I took out sometimes to vacuum and mop the floor. Today, I also made fried noodle for DH, he complimented on the food. He said it was yummy. I guess, it is true what the expert said, practice make things perfect. The last four words that I just wrote reminded me on one of the challenges that is still in my list. Though, there are times, I miss my working life...but when I cook and get to spend time with L.A all the time, I realized that I don't miss them that much (the work), but still, I miss hanging out with my ex-colleagues. 

xoxo, 

24yomummy

How to be happy with less

Last night, after L.A finished watching some of her Barney videos, I browsed through Youtube's video and I saw this video from How Cast: "How to be happy with Less". I thought it is interesting look from another perspective. I hope, after you watch the video, you will be more happy. 

You'll need:

• Acceptance
• Frugality
• Happy thoughts
• Enjoyable experience & 
• Environmentalism

Tips:

• True happiness is not having what you want, but wanting what you got.
• The more you buy into the idea that more money you make happy, the less happy you will be. 
• As long as the bills are paid, there is not much difference between the poor and the rich.
• Think about happy thoughts.
• Think about ways to save money than spending it 
• Focus on things you can use than stuff you can buy.
• Experience brings more pleasure than possession.
• According to research, buying something doesn't make us as happy as we think we will, or for as long as we assume, it will. 

The video's link:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OFJl2nSL5tQ

Thanks How Cast!

I write when I am upset.

For multiple reasons, I was a bit upset today. 

I went to the fridge and took that ice-cream and ate it. I asked myself, was it due to stress that I seem to be enjoying eating this?

I finished the big scoop of ice-cream, and started doing the chores to kill those calories.

Today, I see L.A was very happy. I am  glad that I can be there to watch her grow, and do all sort of things with her. When I see her beside me, I know that this is the best thing that we can provide for her.

I am a full time mummy, now.

Hi, It has been for a while, since I last wrote. Last Friday, was my officially last working day in my current company. After I resigned, I had a wonderful time with L.A. However, I am still trying to get use to this schedule and lifestyle as a full-time mummy.

Working 9-5pm at home, from a system analyst to a nanny.It is a transition period from a fixed paycheck and health benefits to no fixed paycheck, and probably I don't need those health benefit.

Let's talk about L.A and the fun things we spent doing, yesterday? YES!

In the morning and early afternoon:
Mummy was busy cooking for breakfast and lunch, so, daddy took care of L.A
Mummy made American breakfast & fried mihun. Mandy only ate fried mihun. L.A insisted on self- feeding, so mummy put her on the corner's room floor (so that it is easy to do the clean-up, later)
After lunch, we had a drawing session, mummy drew many fruits, L.A continue babbling and scribbling on the drawing board. We played ball, and chase and run.

Late afternoon:
Next, mummy bathed L.A and let her play with the water for a while. After bathing, mummy massaged L.A's legs with Vaseline's lotion. L.A took a short nap.
When L.A woke up, she had cake as snack, and she continue drawing, while mummy preparing the monthly's budget and settled bills online.

Evening:
Mummy brought L.A walked around the neighborhood. Mummy wanted L.A to learn how to socialize, so mummy brought L.A to ah Ma's place. L.A's cousin stayed over, and L.A mingled with them.

Milestone: At 19 months, 1 week, L.A wants to be independent when it comes to self-feeding or drinking.

That's all for now, ta!

9Teen Sept 2011 - Brought you close to my heart.

I'm very elated, I would say. Another 4 days to achieve my dream of being a full-time mummy. I'm not really excited about staying at home, and sleeping late. That are just the 10% of it. But I'm all excited about the reality that I can know be there with L.A and watch her grow. I like the idea of loving her, and raising her to be a happy baby.

I know someday she will grow up to be a loving person, and having a strong passion to see that the people around her are happy. 

I don't know why. But, I just knew it.

A while ago, when she was sleeping just next to me, thoughts running through my head, what if she is going to get married when she found the right person? Will I be ready for it? I'll probably have to happily accept that. I slapped my thoughts, then I took both of my hands and brought her close to my chest, and cuddled her.

While I can. 

Just like some food products that have expiry date, someday, my motherhood's role will one day 'expire'. 

Mummy loves you, little L.A. Though the motherhood's role will expires someday...mummy will love you, and that will be ALWAYS.

Somedays, I might need it.

http://mompreneurasia.com/

Living on single income

Felt so stressful with work right now.But I'm hanging on to it, right now. On the bright side, hubby supported the idea of being a full time mummy. Isn't it GREAT? :)

I have concerns with it comes to living on single income, and also financial commitments. I will have to look thoroughly into it.

But anyway, one of my dreams come true. :)

The love for pet. It stay there.

If we are moving to a new place, both of you will still be coming with us, so I thought.

When I said both of you, I meant my dogs.

When I took both of you back to home in May 2009, you both have become our family.

Family should stick together in regardless of whatever possible crisis that may arise.

Love you both, much.

To Elisha & Einstein (puppies)

From to heart to a little toodler (17m 2w)

I earned that much. I valued it little.
If I knew what landed me here, then I'll do what it takes to get me out of here.
Perhaps it is an impossible goal.
To quit my job - NOW.
But it doesn't mean that it is impossible.

I miss you, Mandy.
It is great waking up early in the morning. Felt like I have just overcome the first battle of the today. The spirit of victory fills mummy's heart.
But nothing will ever match to the moment when you cuddle yourself next to mummy. Your bright eyes reminds mummy of the big dream that mummy have.
Never knew, it is you.

Mummy miss you badly when mummy walked to that nursing room today, thinking how are you doing there at Ah Ma's place.
Mummy missing you badly when mummy ate lunch, thinking about you and hoping there is a chance to feed you the yummy food.

Don't get mummy wrong. Things are wonderful here, job is great here.
But you, you worth more. Special.
That's why.

First time eating fried chicken drumstick @ 17 months.

Kids deserve love from us.

When I saw her playing with the water today after I bathed her, I was filled with such happiness that words alone cannot express. In my heart, I was jumping with excitement -- I finally figured out, this is what I want! This is what I want to do.

To make her happy.
To raise her up in a happy environment.
To be there for her and assist her in making her world beautiful.
She is a very special baby.

I prayed that all mums and dads sees their baby that way. Yes, they are special. Believe it, and that is what they will be when they grow up...

I am drawn to helpless kids because I was once there. I remembered clearly -- when I was bullied. Back then, it wasn't a serious issue because I was not the only one. In fact, there are many that were bullied...maybe by the teacher, the family members, or friends?

Being bullied, and being in the state where you are left helpless will left a scar. It left scars in my life. But Jesus heals me!

What motivates me are not the scars, because the scars are now gone. But the love for the kids. I love them because, they deserve it.

I am inspired to raise a future comforter.

Dear L.A, 


Mummy loves you, very much.

Inside the box

http://insidethebox.com.my/

Some days, I might need it.

The life of a 16 months baby girl.

 Accompanied daddy to get his new glasses done. 

 Introduced to the world of reading and started to liking reading.

 Accompanied mummy to assist Auntie Jenn in selecting wedding gown at bridal shop

Accompanied grandma to a Chinese Wedding's dinner (Grandma's cousins' daughter's big day)

Spent quality time with mummy on the playground.

Roaming around the park.

24yomummy's thought.

Sometimes, you sat there and wonder, I'll like to have three kids, but you are very sure, now, isn't the best or right time yet.

Mummy loves L.A and all of mummy's soon to-be-babies :)

Making history

I don't know why these two words popped up in my head. An inspiration, maybe?

Happy Tuesday, folks.

Our car and garden

Recently, the grass at our mini-garden grew rapdily. So, it was the time for trimming.
Hubby did a wonderful job.
He pulled the grass and it's root.

"He is so man." I thought.

After he has completed that activity, he went and washed his car.

As a result, the car was so shinning.

Now, left the interior of the car.

Dear hubby, it is the little thing. Thank you. I love you.

Sebamed body lotion

Few days ago, L.A got bitten by mosquitoes.  Not just one bite, but many bites. It was heart-breaking. When I witnessed the red marks, I almost feeling like wanting to quit my job and by a full-time caretaker of L.A. I know it is a rush decision. I know it is immature of me. 

But you see, I was in love, remember?

The next day, I told my current care-taker not to bring L.A down to the living hall. The following day, I bought mosquitoes repellent. Ever since that day, she has been protected. 

I met a friend, who shared with me, to apply baby oil on the baby's skin.

I found a sample of Sebamed body lotion, 20ml in my home. I religiously applied to the red marks, each time after bath. I took my own sweet time because L.A is my only little baby for now, I have luxurious of time in pampering her. 

There is something that L.A enjoyed --- baby massage. 

Applying sebamed body lotion left L.A feeling comfortable.

Hubby knocked on the door, on that Sunday morning. "Why is it, taking you so long to dress her up after bathing L.A?" I explained to him about what I did.

Raising a  baby is such a happy journey. No doubt, it can be taxing to the mother as well. But, it's worth it. 

L.A, you are worth it. 

We spent an awesome time together, and I tagged her, wherever I go. Which it leads to separation anxiety, when I'm back to my office. 

Mummy is thinking about you, L.A

Love,
MAMAMAAMA

There she goes, the wishes and the reasons.

1. I wish my hubby loves me more than TV, playstation, and facebook games.
2. I wish he would meant what he said; when we got married last time, he told me that during meal-time, he'd prefer if all of us are eating in the table during mealtime, rather than watching tv while eating. Well, the latter one was demonstrated.
3. I wish he doesn't sweet-talk but only said the truth.
4. I wish he will earn more; so that I can be a stay at home mum. No, to be a rich stay a home mum. 
5. I wish he is just super super rich.
6. I wish he will hire a maid for me, if he can't afford to fulfill my 4th wish.

BECAUSE

It's frustrating.

1. Lonely
2. Disappointed. Now that I have baby, and so much things to do, I hate TV. I was eager for quality family time.
3. Without sincerity, I'm all turn off
4. I think it's very important for one parent to be there for the children at all time.
5. So that I can buy all my needs and wants, and provide charity to those who need it without having to worry about it
6. It's crazy juggling with laundry, household chores while fulfilling the duty as a mum. And breastfeeding, ah, I just can't wait till L.A is 2 years old. 

You know what! It's foolish expecting other to make you happy, to fullfill your wishes, because chances are, they will never happen. 

So yeah, I will post it up here. And feeling glad because I managed to take out what I have in my heart into this blog. 

I'm little bit happier now. I wish you, too.

Making decision in life.

Hi, 

How was your weekend? It sure a long weekend for Malaysian's folks, we had a long weekend. I will be resuming my 9-5 work starting tomorrow. Yes, I'm excited.

This weekend, I spent time doing things that I like and things that I don't quite like. 

And after a thorough thinking, I finally decided to make THAT decision. You know, some people announce happy news, whilst others, they don't.

I'm in the community that doesn't support the decision that I made. As much as I wish to convince everyone that it wasn't a rush decision, I think I will not get people to support my decision.

This weekend, my MIL commented that I was fat. I wasn't offended at first. But when I came back home, and after relaxing, I realize, what she said was not necessary, and if I don't learn to reject negative comment, I would ended-up being upset. I just rejected the comment. I regretted, I didn't reply back, in a nice manner. I was a little disappointed because hubby didn't said any word to defend. I'm not close with my in-law. You see.

I don't think I'm fat. Seriously. I just left with another 2kg to achieve my pre-pregnancy weight :)

Apart from this "bad apple", I have a rather an awesome weekend. I received two great news via cellphone...both of my friends, shared with me two good news, one of them is that she got the job that she wanted. Isn't it cool? It is! 

I'm so happy for you, girl.

On the decision that I have made, just like how we required a proper plan to achieve a goal, this decision required the same too. Wish me, all the best, folks. 

Love, xoxo.

Caught smiling while sleeping.

Daddy's favorite dinning table.

While feeding L.A, I asked hubby one question, whether he preferred square table or round table? He answered:-

"Round dinner table". After shortly, he was fast asleep.

I think his opinion matters. 

The love of my life, I love you. *virtual hugs*

P/s: We were in IKEA, on 24th April 2011.

9 steps to deal with separation anxiety -_-"

1. Practice separation. Leave your child with a caregiver for brief periods and short distances at first.
2. Schedule separations after naps or feedings. Babies are more susceptible to separation anxiety when they’re tired or hungry.
3. Develop a “goodbye” ritual. Rituals are reassuring and can be as simple as a special wave through the window or a goodbye kiss.  Kiss and hug your baby when you leave and tell him where you're going and when you'll be back, but don't prolong your goodbyes. And, resist the urge to sneak out the back door
4. Keep familiar surroundings when possible and make new surroundings familiar. Have the sitter come to your house. When your child is away from home, let him or her bring a familiar object.
5. Have a consistent primary caregiver. If you hire a caregiver, try to keep him or her on the job.
6. Leave without fanfare. Tell your child you are leaving and that you will return, then go—don’t stall.
7. Minimize scary television. Your child is less likely to be fearful if the shows you watch are not frightening.
8. Try not to give in. Reassure your child that he or she will be just fine—setting limits will help the adjustment to separation.
9. Let your baby get comfortable. Ask a new sitter to visit and play with your baby several times before leaving them alone for the first time. For your first real outing, ask the sitter to arrive about 30 minutes before you depart so that she and the baby can be well engaged before you step out the door. Employ the same approach at a daycare center or at your nursery, church, or health club.

*Data sourced from helpguide.org

Separation Anxiety

It was a troubled night. I couldn't sleep because my mind was thinking, why is that I'm so desired to be there 24/7 for my baby. 

When I looked back through the past, and recalled the parenting style that was practised in raising me up. I finally figured out why.

Don't get me wrong, I think my parents love us in the measure of love that is indescribably. They communicated their love in their way.

But I guess, I didn't feel their love as much as they gave, or when I was in primary school, I wish they were there.

Are you one of those kids that wishing upon the stars that your parents are there for you?

I recalled the girl that has her hair tied up by her mum. Her long hair. But for me, I never had the chance to have a long hair.

I recalled my friends that has talcum powder in some of their face because their mum get them ready for school.

I grew up expecting that they will never be there for my report card day, for my sport day UNLESS my teacher tells me that it is very necessary.

When I bullied by my teacher at primary 2, nobody really remember what was happened. But it left scar in my mind. For a very long time. The watchers may recalled the moment, but it is just one particulars bad scenario that happened to their classmates. But I remembered it for a very long time.

Up to now. 

I finally figured out why I wanted to be there for my baby.

When I small, I didn't really have the control. But now that I'm an adult, I'm blessed with capability to make my own decision, and take charge of my life.

No, no, no. I won't let my past effect my present decision. 

What I'm trying to communicate is that, I'm going to learn from the outcomes of my past.

I certainly want my kids to be loved, and know they are loved my me and hubby.

That they are the priority.

I want them to know that I cherish and respect my parents.

I want to be an exemplary, a person that they will look up when challenges come along the journey of their life.

And yes, this morning, when I left L.A to work, I experienced separation anxiety. 

She experienced her first fall and injured her lip, and her upper nose. My heart BREAKS!!! :(

While on the way to my parent's place, I placed her on my chest, cuddled and kiss her.

I kept apologized to her. 

It looks to me, that if I apologized to her, and cuddled it.

It made her comfortable, and secure.

My chances of having twin babies.

I always tell my sisters and close friends that I wish I can have a twin baby. But you know, I never asked and prayed about it before to God.

Early this afternoon, my close friend replied my email, she said "if you really want to have twins.. then just pray and tell Him your desire.. with God nothing is impossible even if your genes in your family don't have any twins. the genes can start from you. "

I always know He knows and only gives what is the best for me.

So starting from today, I'll ask Him.

I know He will give me the best for me. 

In dilemma (20110418)

It happened. The person that you loved, cared and respected threw the milk bottle. Out of frustration. Over unresolved issue. I wish what you did, is not what has happened. The seconds. 

I'm sad with the whole incident. 

But with silence, I walked away. 

With heart was pierced with spears, I walked away. 

I can curse.

I can gossip.

I can choose to pay back.

I'm capable of doing what you did too.

But I will not. 

Though what you did left me cried over spilt milk.

Though what you did left me restless in the sleeping bed.

Though what you did prompts me to have unnecessarily thought.

I choose not to disrespect you.

I choose not to hate you.

I'm not the BIG GUY up there.

If I am, I wish I could kiss the pain away, right away.

I respect you.

I love you.

Because of that, I need time-out.

Medela Freestyle Breastpump review

This is the most expensive gadget that I bought for 2010. It cost almost RM2K, but I was lucky enough to bump into Kak Aja. I have introduced her to number of my friends because of her fantastic customer service. She sold this gadget at attractive price of RM1,699 (more or less). I can't remember the exact price because this purchase was made about a year ago. 

What I really like about this gadget is that, it provides FREEDOM. Perhaps what is said about FREESTYLE is indeed equivalent to FREEDOM. This product worth every cent. If you think breastfeeding journey is tough, and you can afford a quality breast pump. I recommend this product.

Oh, occasionally, Kak Aja provides installment based payment or in other words "kutu". :)

Other than spelling freedom to this product, I'm attracted to the size of the breast pump, it is very light compared to other breast pump, and you can bring it everywhere you want.

I can multi-task while pumping, set the pumping rhythmic that encourage the milk flowing from my breast, I can bring it everywhere without experiencing back-pain. I can pump at my room, living room, reading room, anywhere!!!

But I must be honest, although this product support lactating mother to continue breastfeeding their kids, mother still required determination to further this passion because breastfeeding journey requires sacrifice =/

Don't we, sometimes just hate sacrifice. Sacrifice equivalent to NO FUN!!! 

But as the expert often said: You want success, you've gotta sacrifice!

Home Improvement: Got to have it chic

Style up with our top ten must-have decor pieces for your home

1. Spotlights
Bounce beams of light off your ceiling or walls. You'll achieve two things with this - the illusion of space and the ability to highlight a feature wall or vibrant painting. Choose multi-swivel spots, so you can point them in different directions.

2. Feature anything
Think out of box. You don't have to use paintings, sculptures or furniture to decorate. Use splashes of color on your doors and printed wallpapers that will draw the eye and keep attention

3. The lamp shade
What an invention better than the light bulb? Beautiful lamps that go pop, of course! Use them in any form - as table pieces, or as big feature over your bar counter or dining table.

4. Mirror on the wall
Tired of enclosed space? Open up with wide mirrors by adding them to a feature wall. The reflection of light on the mirrors will bring out space (and the colors) in your home. You can even choose to use them artistically by creating a mirror collage.


5. Set your table
Who doesn't love to host intimate dinner parties? Go classy and make an effort to set your dining table! Start with a table runner and a centerpiece and work from there. Simply add a little thought and revel in compliments.

6. Rug it out
Express yourself with textures, in the form of lush floor rugs. Keep it simple with a soft, sedated colors, or go wild with prints! Unlike other decorative items, rugs can be switched up anytime you wish, so don't be to afraid to experiment.

7. Go beyond basic bedding
Turn your master bedroom into soul of your home with a beautiful bedding. We're talking about fluffy pillows, pretty display pillows and beautiful sheets. Find one that fits the color scheme of your room and even play with prints. remember, the higher the tread count, the better. Feel like rolling around in bed all day? Well, you've achieved your goal.

8.  Artwork
If you have a white wall and do nothing to do with it, add artwork! You don't have to go out and purchase the most expensive painting in the art gallery to amp up your walls. Even putting paint to a while canvas haphazardly yourself will do the trick. Besides, you can always tell family and friends it was done by an obscure budding artist -- you.

9. Accents
Accents around the home such as cushions make a difference In fact, these could be the staple of your living room, by keeping the walls and furnitrue a cool, cream colour and go wild with the throw pillows.

10. Photography
Turn your four walls into a lived-in and vibrant home with family photographs. Instead of random photo frames on table tops, make a wall collage. Your photographs should speak a thousand word,s so keep the feature  simple with clean and sleek frames.

*Sourced from www.propertyguru.com.sg*

In love with L.A

Hi L.A, 

While at work, mummy miss you. The memory of spending time with you after returning from office, keeps mummy happy.

Mummy thinks that she is in love with you. If daddy hears this, probably he'll be jealous, but no-no, daddy is still the love of mummy's life, irregardless of what happen.  Daddy is an amazing person. 

Mummy is proud of you. 

Mummy wish she can spend quality time with you. 

Love,

Mummy.

Are you POLO enough?

Everytime when I see the ads by Nuffnang, I'm attracted to the POLO car. Not only it looks stylish, it is also a red-hot car! The 5 years warranty provided by Volkswagen is a steal too!

*day-dreaming*

My other dream car is Honda Jazz. 

If budget allows, then I'll have it. 

If not, well, I'll just keep on dreaming. At least it made me happy.  

It a happy motherhood ride.

Hah! Sad, she cried when I left her to my mum and to work. 

I miss her though she woke up few times in the night called MAMAaaa, MAMAaa. I had interrupted sleep.  I shared this to an experienced mum, she told me, well, at least that's better, you don't have to wake up and prepare the formula milk, and she reminded me, well, that's mother's sacrifice loh.

True true. Motherhood brings me a tremendous joy. But I guess behind all joys, there is this thing called sacrifice. 

New Paradigms by Os Hillman

Hi L.A, just want to share with you on what mummy read this morning:-

If you want to experience something you've never done, you must do something you've never done. In his book Experiencing God: Knowing and Doing His Will, Henry Blackaby writes, "You cannot go with God and stay where you are."

Mummy loves you.

Playing with a 13 months baby activities after work.

I'm going to write about what we did yesterday after I came back from work. I hope I don't sound bored to the readers, or to myself. Hahaha.

I reached home about 7pm. L.A looked exhausted. The moment she saw me, she screamed "MAMAMA". I quickly dropped my bags on the stairs and went over to her. I read and understand her signal...

She want to be held immediately. She usually demands this, when she is over-tired or hungry.

The moment I held her, I remembered that, I actually need to go to the toilet first, to pee =_+

So my plan was to put her down back to her highchair....but it didn't happen. So I forget about the toilet visit first, and continue entertaining her, feeding her, bringing her walk across the rooms of the home over and over again (few rounds, the same rounds!!) putting her back into her high chair, cleaning up all the mess she created with the foods given.

L.A plays with food and eat them. I don't seem to mind cleaning up the mess, though sometimes it can be tiring. But I guess, because I saw the benefit of self-feeding before. The mess, they are just the mess. 

You want your kids to learn? Let them explore. So, I think.

All these activities, right after work, it sure left me feeling all exhausted. Of course, later on, I managed to steal some time to the toilet. 

Secretly, I hope I can perform better in entertaining my baby. More stamina, especially right after work. 

Working mom

In the middle of the night, she woke up and called "Mah" and move her head closer to my body as a signal that she want feeding. Few times. It's tiring, but I don't mind. That's the only that I get to be close to my baby and that's how I defined bonding.

This morning, I passed her to mum. Before I did that, I asked her to say "duck". She learnt this new word during bathing session (last night). She said "duck", I praised her. Then I waved goodbye and said "bye", she said "bye bye" and waved with her hands. Then I told her that I'm coming back to pick her up after work.

I walked. She cried.

Sad.

Bathing a baby

I had a fun time bathing with L.A, last night.

After we returned home, it was pretty late already as I was on standby (my work) at my mum's place.

I think it was about 11pm when the bath tub was finally filled with the warm water.

I put her on the bath tub as soon as I'm done shampooing her hair and rubbing her body with body shampoo.

Then I let her play in the bath tub while I took my turn to bath myself.

While rubbing my hair with the hair shampoo, I thought "the three little colorful ducks made her happy. They are a good investment"

I'll like to note this fact. 

a) Yesterday, 31st March 2011 was the first day that I actually play water with L.A outside the bath tub. I supported one of her hands, let her stand, and we play "rain-rain", the typical bathing game that I used to play with my sisters when we were young. 

b) Last Sunday, 28th March 2011, it was the second time, L.A gave me the signal that it is a poo time. I put her in our toilet bowl, and she quietly complete her poo business with focus, hahaha. 

I was determined to ensure our toilet bowl will be cleaned on daily basis to accommodate to that little sunshine's need. Small matter, I'll do it every time when I'm taking shower! ;)

L.A, mummy loves you - the very very much one. 

Cloudy night.

Something just happened. Quite sad, actually. It effected my emotional being. I stopped for a while and I'm thinking, maybe what I just wished and hoped for, wouldn't come true.

The hope, it was always there.
But now, it is slowly decreasing.
I should do something about this.

I have to be independent, when it comes to this.

No two ways.

Sigh. Long long sigh.

My very very first post.

Exactly two days ago, L.A was 1 year, 1 month and 7 days old, she started to walk independently. I'm so proud of her. Thank God for this lovely sunshine.

This morning, when she woke up next to hubby, she looked at the side of my bed, and cry at the door. Poor little girl thought that her mummy was at home. 

I was at work. Hubby explained to her, she kept quiet and then continued to sleep. Cute. Smart. Adorable. 

I'm still at work. I miss her a lot.