Sigh, what can I say for today, I had a bad day. I tried to be as positive as I can until I see L.A slept. 

Today, one of my dogs did not listen to my instruction, he barked many times although I said no. I was left frustrated. I did punished him, but that left me feeling guilty.

So, this is not a win win situation. It is the other way around.

In the past, I have learnt how to get things done in a smart way, not in the hard way.

"Work smart, not work hard"

Till now, I am still thinking about ways on how to put it into practice when it comes to handling daily challenges.

Though my Thursday is not as fun as other days, I wish you had a good one. 

Good night, people. 

(posting from my email)

Which path?

Am I in dilemma? I am weighing the pros and cons, once again.
There is a part of me that wants to do this but I have a lot of concerns.
Another part of me thinks I should be doing the other thing.
Hmmmm.

xoxo,
24yomummy

Confirmed the registration for KAAK course.

A while ago, I just confirmed my registration for KAAK course in SEGI college. The course is expected to start on Nov 2011 and ends in March 2012. As I will be taking care of L.A on full-time basis, I have decided to attend the course on part-time basis; that will be on every Saturday, plus Wed/Fri of that particular week.

If you ask me, what is my feeling about my enrollment? Well, mummy is excited, L.A :)

This will be the first step for me to be educated in the area of childcare. 

My source of motivation comes from the dream that I have > to start a happy home for children that provides quality childcare, and because quality comes with a higher price (these days), I am determined to challenge myself to do what I can on the charging fees without compromise the service quality.

This is my dream.

***

4th October 2011: 

I had a wonderful time with L.A at home. I am grateful because we have First Year Child Booster, I managed to kept L.A busy with meal, and blocks while I took out sometimes to vacuum and mop the floor. Today, I also made fried noodle for DH, he complimented on the food. He said it was yummy. I guess, it is true what the expert said, practice make things perfect. The last four words that I just wrote reminded me on one of the challenges that is still in my list. Though, there are times, I miss my working life...but when I cook and get to spend time with L.A all the time, I realized that I don't miss them that much (the work), but still, I miss hanging out with my ex-colleagues. 

xoxo, 

24yomummy

I write when I am upset.

For multiple reasons, I was a bit upset today. 

I went to the fridge and took that ice-cream and ate it. I asked myself, was it due to stress that I seem to be enjoying eating this?

I finished the big scoop of ice-cream, and started doing the chores to kill those calories.

Today, I see L.A was very happy. I am  glad that I can be there to watch her grow, and do all sort of things with her. When I see her beside me, I know that this is the best thing that we can provide for her.

The love for pet. It stay there.

If we are moving to a new place, both of you will still be coming with us, so I thought.

When I said both of you, I meant my dogs.

When I took both of you back to home in May 2009, you both have become our family.

Family should stick together in regardless of whatever possible crisis that may arise.

Love you both, much.

To Elisha & Einstein (puppies)

There she goes, the wishes and the reasons.

1. I wish my hubby loves me more than TV, playstation, and facebook games.
2. I wish he would meant what he said; when we got married last time, he told me that during meal-time, he'd prefer if all of us are eating in the table during mealtime, rather than watching tv while eating. Well, the latter one was demonstrated.
3. I wish he doesn't sweet-talk but only said the truth.
4. I wish he will earn more; so that I can be a stay at home mum. No, to be a rich stay a home mum. 
5. I wish he is just super super rich.
6. I wish he will hire a maid for me, if he can't afford to fulfill my 4th wish.

BECAUSE

It's frustrating.

1. Lonely
2. Disappointed. Now that I have baby, and so much things to do, I hate TV. I was eager for quality family time.
3. Without sincerity, I'm all turn off
4. I think it's very important for one parent to be there for the children at all time.
5. So that I can buy all my needs and wants, and provide charity to those who need it without having to worry about it
6. It's crazy juggling with laundry, household chores while fulfilling the duty as a mum. And breastfeeding, ah, I just can't wait till L.A is 2 years old. 

You know what! It's foolish expecting other to make you happy, to fullfill your wishes, because chances are, they will never happen. 

So yeah, I will post it up here. And feeling glad because I managed to take out what I have in my heart into this blog. 

I'm little bit happier now. I wish you, too.

Making decision in life.

Hi, 

How was your weekend? It sure a long weekend for Malaysian's folks, we had a long weekend. I will be resuming my 9-5 work starting tomorrow. Yes, I'm excited.

This weekend, I spent time doing things that I like and things that I don't quite like. 

And after a thorough thinking, I finally decided to make THAT decision. You know, some people announce happy news, whilst others, they don't.

I'm in the community that doesn't support the decision that I made. As much as I wish to convince everyone that it wasn't a rush decision, I think I will not get people to support my decision.

This weekend, my MIL commented that I was fat. I wasn't offended at first. But when I came back home, and after relaxing, I realize, what she said was not necessary, and if I don't learn to reject negative comment, I would ended-up being upset. I just rejected the comment. I regretted, I didn't reply back, in a nice manner. I was a little disappointed because hubby didn't said any word to defend. I'm not close with my in-law. You see.

I don't think I'm fat. Seriously. I just left with another 2kg to achieve my pre-pregnancy weight :)

Apart from this "bad apple", I have a rather an awesome weekend. I received two great news via cellphone...both of my friends, shared with me two good news, one of them is that she got the job that she wanted. Isn't it cool? It is! 

I'm so happy for you, girl.

On the decision that I have made, just like how we required a proper plan to achieve a goal, this decision required the same too. Wish me, all the best, folks. 

Love, xoxo.

In dilemma (20110418)

It happened. The person that you loved, cared and respected threw the milk bottle. Out of frustration. Over unresolved issue. I wish what you did, is not what has happened. The seconds. 

I'm sad with the whole incident. 

But with silence, I walked away. 

With heart was pierced with spears, I walked away. 

I can curse.

I can gossip.

I can choose to pay back.

I'm capable of doing what you did too.

But I will not. 

Though what you did left me cried over spilt milk.

Though what you did left me restless in the sleeping bed.

Though what you did prompts me to have unnecessarily thought.

I choose not to disrespect you.

I choose not to hate you.

I'm not the BIG GUY up there.

If I am, I wish I could kiss the pain away, right away.

I respect you.

I love you.

Because of that, I need time-out.