9Teen Sept 2011 - Brought you close to my heart.

I'm very elated, I would say. Another 4 days to achieve my dream of being a full-time mummy. I'm not really excited about staying at home, and sleeping late. That are just the 10% of it. But I'm all excited about the reality that I can know be there with L.A and watch her grow. I like the idea of loving her, and raising her to be a happy baby.

I know someday she will grow up to be a loving person, and having a strong passion to see that the people around her are happy. 

I don't know why. But, I just knew it.

A while ago, when she was sleeping just next to me, thoughts running through my head, what if she is going to get married when she found the right person? Will I be ready for it? I'll probably have to happily accept that. I slapped my thoughts, then I took both of my hands and brought her close to my chest, and cuddled her.

While I can. 

Just like some food products that have expiry date, someday, my motherhood's role will one day 'expire'. 

Mummy loves you, little L.A. Though the motherhood's role will expires someday...mummy will love you, and that will be ALWAYS.

From to heart to a little toodler (17m 2w)

I earned that much. I valued it little.
If I knew what landed me here, then I'll do what it takes to get me out of here.
Perhaps it is an impossible goal.
To quit my job - NOW.
But it doesn't mean that it is impossible.

I miss you, Mandy.
It is great waking up early in the morning. Felt like I have just overcome the first battle of the today. The spirit of victory fills mummy's heart.
But nothing will ever match to the moment when you cuddle yourself next to mummy. Your bright eyes reminds mummy of the big dream that mummy have.
Never knew, it is you.

Mummy miss you badly when mummy walked to that nursing room today, thinking how are you doing there at Ah Ma's place.
Mummy missing you badly when mummy ate lunch, thinking about you and hoping there is a chance to feed you the yummy food.

Don't get mummy wrong. Things are wonderful here, job is great here.
But you, you worth more. Special.
That's why.

In love with L.A

Hi L.A, 

While at work, mummy miss you. The memory of spending time with you after returning from office, keeps mummy happy.

Mummy thinks that she is in love with you. If daddy hears this, probably he'll be jealous, but no-no, daddy is still the love of mummy's life, irregardless of what happen.  Daddy is an amazing person. 

Mummy is proud of you. 

Mummy wish she can spend quality time with you. 

Love,

Mummy.

New Paradigms by Os Hillman

Hi L.A, just want to share with you on what mummy read this morning:-

If you want to experience something you've never done, you must do something you've never done. In his book Experiencing God: Knowing and Doing His Will, Henry Blackaby writes, "You cannot go with God and stay where you are."

Mummy loves you.